Prior Actions

Have you ever wished bad things on someone else? Like hoping a cocky friend will fail the final exam, or wishing your gorgeous classmate would suddenly get horrible, incurable acne. What about wishing bad things on yourself? Maybe you do it because you feel you deserve it. A kind of personal punishment for the wrongs you feel you have committed in life. Perhaps it’s because you want the attention of those less fortunate. Aren’t they the ones who always get the help and the sympathy and the love? I’m not sure if I believe we can wish things true. This isn’t a fairy tale. This is the real world. And while magic and miracles and wonder exist at every turn, I’m not sure how much control we should actually think we possess. But what about a higher power – whichever one you happen to believe in – who does have the control? Call it fate, divine intervention, or karma, but perhaps in the end we really do get what we deserve. Maybe I earned this through my own rash decisions and less-than-perfect behavior. That’s actually a fact, isn’t it? There really isn’t any other good explanation for why this would be happening. I did this to myself. I have no one else to blame. It’s my own inability to control even my own actions that set these events into motion. And now I’m left with the consequences…ironically all alone now. If only I could have been okay with that before – then this never would have happened in the first place. Or would it?